Enough is Enough

Monday Missives #11

The alerts on my phone (the ones I have not yet turned off) and the emails in my inbox (the ones I have not yet unsubscribed from) keep letting me know what really matters (in case I forgot or, more often, did not think about at all): Buy this. Need that. Save on this. Act now on that. Eat like this. Feel bad like that. Read this. Worry about that.

But I really do not need these reminders or alerts. I already worry enough about having enough, doing enough, being enough. It is a recurring theme for me. Not just the past seven months. Not just the past year. It is a recurring theme for me most of my life which makes it a recurring theme of (most) of my posts as I work it out of my system (or at least make my peace with it). A recurring theme that can easily veer off into maudlin (or healthy) introspection. A recurring theme that can propel me into more action (and less waiting) at a heightened, unsustainable pace (until I crash). A recurring theme that distracts me from what matters most (the people I am with), and what is right there in front of me to do (or not do) first.

Today I will unsubscribe, unfollow, and not comment. I will “save for later,” turn off and tune out. And I will love my body (including my belly that feels pressure to tighten up), open my heart (including the parts that hurt because they are broken), and release my mind (including the thoughts that believe they have to protect me).

Because enough is enough.

Meals Out: I had an impromptu hang with two of my favorite people at Vibrissa (second week in a row I went there). This time I did have something to eat (the sliders minus the jalapeño and a later—we were there for a while—fries) and I discovered a new twist on my fave drink (Vodka and soda) when lime juice, not just a fresh lime, was added (the reason why is a long but funny story). The addition of lime juice was so good, I think this will be how I order this drink every time. On Sunday I went to brunch with some of the best vibes ladies you will ever meet. This time we drove all the way to Martinsburg, WV (it’s really not that far) and had brunch in The Venue by Brix27. IThe food was delicious (buffet meant lots of options) and the company was even better.

Listening (voice): No much that really stood out to me this week. But I was also very dug in to recording and editing so my bandwidth/time to listen to much else goes down (which I also don’t mind).

Listening (song most likely on repeat): September Fields, Frazey Ford. A person I love dearly shared this song with me recently and this week, when I walked a total of 20 miles in nine days (mostly in my neighborhood), it became an integral part of my soundtrack. It is had the perfect pep for my step.

Watching: ***HOT NEW SHOW ALERT*** for the best new British murder mystery show Ludwig on Amazon Prime with BritBox Subscription (one of the few subscriptions I refuse to cancel because I LOVE my British murder mysteries above all else and BritBox gives me access to most of them). This show is so great on so many levels and features a wonderfully neuro-spicy, accidental detective who really is a puzzler (by trade and by nature) who discovers he’s quite good at solving murder mysteries even if he is not so good at being around people. You can only imagine how much I love everything about this show.

I also started The Studio on Apple TV (I will talk about that next week). So far, I am not hating it but I also don’t know that I love it. I struggle with cringe comedy but I love Catherine O’Hara (who is in this) so much that she may be the reason I keep up with it. Will report back.

And of course I watched The White Lotus on Max (unlike a lot of other people, I’m ok with not much happening because in fact, there is a lot happening) and I continue to have way too many (not good) thoughts about the trajectory of the plot around the three lady friends…I am bothered by it in a way that I want to discuss but then decide I do not want to give it space (and that’s the part I am most curious about—why do I not want to write or talk about it? Is it because I disagree with the portrayal or identify with (some of) it too much? I don’t really know but I think I might know which is what I am not sure I want to know). But I do know this—if one of them turns out to be (***SPOILER ALERT***) the shooter (if that’s even how this all ends because based on some of the moments where there is a shooting that turns out not to be a shooting), then I will have a LOT to say about all of it. I shall report back after the finale.

Finally I will say that The Righteous Gemstones is jumping the shark in a way that I feel takes away from its genius. Is ***SPOILER ALERT*** lots of extended full-frontal nudity (Walton Goggins’ Baby Billy character again only this time on a jet ski) and walking-in-on-“parents”-having-sex-well-actually-69ing just lazy (it’s not that I’m offended in any way; I just did not feel like either of those scenes (among a few others tbh) added any real value). Or is this what it looks like when you have zero limitations and nothing to lose (this is the last season which, based on this season, feels like a good thing) that you go so far into the ridiculous it’s beyond over the top simply because you can? Like, am I missing something and this is unbound creativity at its best? I will keep giving it my time but I am not sure I will enjoy it which makes me wonder why I am giving it my time. Again, will report back.

Reading: Nothing really.

Most Hours Logged Doing: Lots of walking, lots of hanging out with friends, and lots of digging in the dirt. It was a glorious weekend.

Monday Morning Meditation: 3.31.25

Being good to myself means not blowing past my accomplishments and successes nor does it mean pushing through when I am tired and need to rest.

And in case you were wondering, I now have a a roommate. She lives outside though.